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Goodbyes Before The Lights Go Out

Last night, I had a terrible dream.

Some background first. When I was a spanking lad of about 20 years of age, I was already a upwardly mobile yuppie living in my own bachelor pad. One day during a party in my condo, a group of Chinese-Indonesian girls came invited by my Indonesian housemate. One of these girls, who we shall call Melia, kinda decided that I was a good catch or something. After the party, she would call me regularly and ask me out for drinks but I never went out with her unless it was with a group because I was a bit of a prick (more details later).

That was 10 years ago, and over time I lost touch with Melia. I heard she married some rich Indonesian dude in his 40s some time back but she was never the sort of person I really gave the time of the day to.

So last night, I dreamt that I was in my old bachelor pad. Melia was there with her original group of friends that came to the party where we first met. All the furniture was the same. Even the stains on the wall made by my drunken antics were all there as I remembered them. The light however, was pretty dim.

Melia came and sat next to me on the sofa and said “Do you know how long I’ve been waiting for you, to meet you again?”. And then she began fondling and hugging me, which made me uncomfortable so I moved away to another seat.

Then she told the other girls that it was a little warm in the room, and they all begun removing the clothes. Pretty soon they were all lounging around in their lingerie (the type with garters and belts).

Melia said “Why don’t you take a photo of us with your mobile phone?”

Since I couldn’t refuse, I aimed my camera and took the photo. To my horror, all the girls appeared in the photo except Melia. Thinking there was something wrong with my phone, I took another shot - but Melia simply refused to appear in the photo!

I began to panic, and then I asked the other girls if I could borrow their moblie phones to take another photo.

Melia then came and sat down next to me again. As she ran her fingers through my hair she said “None of my friends have mobile phones with cameras…. so none of them know…. yet”

It was then that I woke up from my dream and sat up in bed!

In my heart, I know that Melia passed away last night.

Melia, wherever you are - I’m sorry I wasn’t nicer to you when you were on this earth. Thank you for letting me know. I hope your soul finds eternal peace.

ok… but what if she is still alive?

Good thing I’m reading this in the afternoon.

she’s just missing you probably.

scary shit

scary thought, but don’t jump to conclusions yet. it could just be guilt manifesting itself in a dream.

go check obituaries, ask friends, etc. who knows, she might still be alive and therein lies an opportunity for you to close the chapter properly.

wah lao its like 330 in the afternoon and i had chills down my spine when i read the last para lor! kns.

Don’t bluff. You guys were having a mass orgy in your dreams right!

Anyway, don’t jump to conclusion first. Check and ask around ( if possible ).

My jaw dropped, I could feel goosebumps all over, and a wave of emotions rushed through me.

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Erm, dun assume that she’s gone because of what she said in the dream. Pls dun curse her before finding out the facts. Its a goosebump-raising post though….

ya how come you can assume like that?!

wah…. u must have made an huge impression on her,
to have this kind of “honour”.

ur ghost story not scary enough leh.

Forgot to do something for the “brothers and sisters” for the seventh month?

Interesting… To think that I read this at 1:29am. BLEH.

me at 3.40am. =.=

*kiss*

U rejected her cuz u realise u r gay right?

You see, there might be more of a closure if you actually confirmed that she was dead. So, is she or is she not? Feelings felt deep in hearts are not counted. “I knew deep in my heart that he was the one” (said many times about exes)… get what I mean?

Oi! say i dead so bad lar!

Well there are somethings you know deep inside you despite what others say.
Maybe its a final good bye from her to you cos you are someone she missed.

“but I never went out with her unless it was with a group because I was a bit of a prick (more details later).”

I read and read..but no part where you were a bit of a prick. WHEREEE.

I called and checked with her friends… it took some time but…

It’s true. She passed away. But that was last month.

Sorry to hear that. Hope you are not tat much affected by this.

she took one mth to tell u? in a lingerie in ur dreams??

canot be less sexual meh

Oh hey then she probably came back to say hi and bye. Now Seventh Month just started nia.

wow. amazing sense…something we can’t understand.
well…hope she has led a happy life =)

and for god’s sake, a room full of naked girls? geez, i would have reacted in a different way…

so did u find out that she passed away from her friends before you dreamt of her or after you dreamt of her?

I read this at 12.50am. haha. Is quite sad, not scary lor. It happened to my grandfather before my grandma passed away too. But at least she didnt try to scare you in the dream of somthing. that would be creepy.

note to self: do not read cowboycaleb’s blog during 7th month…………………